Sunday, April 26, 2009

Five more weeks

Today is our day
We'll live like we'll die tomorrow
We'll learn like we'll live forever
Mahandas K. Gandhi told his people
My life is an open book
He was no emperor,
not a military general,
not a president
nor a prime minister
Gandhi was simply a constant experimenter
Five more weeks before we'll go on our seperate ways
Until we meet again
Perhaps not and there is a good chance never again
Good night my students
This is my daily inner voice tonight

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Easter 2009

"This is the coldest Easter sunday I've ever had," my father in law kept telling us
At his age of seventy, I am sure he knows what he meant
His basement is warmth by the expensive woodstove,
which he earned through his hard working years
Waking early and traveling to several states to make a living
Raising a family in Glover, Vermont
Started out as a barber
Then, the hippies came; they took away his business
"Noone wanted short hairs," he exclaimed
Life is to blame
Life is a shame
If it is to blame
For life goes on and on
Noone is here to stay
We're simply passing by
through our journey
Life is this Easter
I spent with my father-in-law,
mother-in-law; their beautiful daughter,
whose is my wife and our two lovely daughters;
and not to forget, our pet and my black lab buddy,
Salem-Hieng
He is in a time share
with my in law and their two cats
Life is living
This is my inner voice tonight
B. John

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Good night

Good is your
On the hill of Glover, Vermont
Over and over again
Doing what you could
Neath in God's hell tonight
You decide what I meant for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How I Wish

How I wishdon
I could play a piano
Like Amadeus
Like Beethoven
But I can't
In rushing with time
I end up writing these words
from the Northeast Kingdom of Vermont
Where I used to have a little infant
Where I did whatever I could
To be alive
The rainbow is beneath our soul
But we must redeem
Screaming for joy
a boy is here to ood night....................

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Happy Easter, Passover and Laotian New Year

April 11, 2009

Hi Brother Rick,

This is an opportunity to wish you, Eva and family a Happy Passover, Easter and Laotian New Year (April 14th) at least that was I said to my students before departuring for some, their last spring break (those seniors in my capstone accelerated class). Sorry, I missed your call. As you know me, I often forget my cell phone at home, in the truck, office or coach locker. The last time it was found in one of my three lockers. It was good to find your voice again. That's great, you can speak again.

We went down to Dartmouth College for Maya's college visit yesterday. Even though we're there so often, it is like our backyard with our own tennis courts, it was good to attend the gatherings and tour. Maya was impressed. It would be an ideal if she were to go to college here. Like she said it is her life and future. She needs to go to college where she feels her best.

Yes, it was good for Eva to experience her Jewish side. I think it is very important to know one's identity and cultural background not only in the United States, but also in the world. Life is too short.

Wish you were here. I saved the barn fire for you, but since you couldn't be here. Last night Vicki and I burned it on a Good Friday. As a Catholic I was not supposed to eat all day on this day, I'll switch it for today (Saturday). I almost burned all of my USMLEs, send this life long dream to God. Somehow I didn't. Well, I better get back to my study. It is now 3:54am.

Happy Passover, Easter and Laotian New Year,

J. John

April 9, 2009

Brother,

sorry for not getting back to you sooner. Suddenly its thursday! yes, it was too complicated to get up there this visit. We´ve had a very nice time with my folks, and two celebrations of the jewish passover, which have been great experiences for Eva to discover her jewish side.

yes indeed, not easy times on the economic front.

hey, we should try and at least talk once on the phone while I¨m here. I want to hear a bit more about how you see the boards stuff.

Best,

Rick

April 9, 2009

Hi Rick-

I assume we'll not meet during your visit this time since I have not heard from you. I know you're going through a lot lately. I wish you well soon from laryngitis.

Life is happening so fast. All of a sudden, it is time for Maya to search for a college, and Melanie to start high school. Still it is worth every moment we're together as a family in the Northeast Kingsom of Vermont. Many people are less fortunated than us. At least we have jobs. Infact, too many jobs for both Vicki and me. This year we're hitting by taxes. Not sure how we can make the payment, which is over someone's annual salary. It seems as if the harder we work, the harder we get punished by the goverments. There must be a way out of here.

Hope you're well with your lovely daughter Eva and parents. We'll connect another time.

Happy Passover and Easter,

B. John

April 6, 2009

Borhter,

Of course you can consult me about schools for Maya. its a pretty impressive line up you have for her. My voice is weak, but its starting to come back. So we can certainly chat, on email, the phone, or even in person if we can swing something after april 10th. Its not been super busy really. I´ve just tried to be spending good time with Eva and my parents so far.

So let´s be in touch this week.

Best,

Rick

April 4, 2009

Hi Rick,

You must have so many competing demands now that you're stateside, family, friends, daughter and all others who need your consultation. Of course, this must be challenging with laryngitis. If you have a moment to spare, please send me a line. We have April 10th as a headmaster holiday, and the following week off for the spring break. We still have tennis team practicing, but we will also squeeze in the time for Maya's college visits. We are visiting Harvard, BC, Brown and Brandeis.

Could we consult with you regarding Brown as a possibility for Maya's pre-med and tennis?

Shalom,

B. John

March 25, 2009

hey there brother,
Just checking in. How things going? Studying? Not? More, less? Feeling alive? Like a success or a failure?

I´m coming to visit boston with Eva this thursday april 2. We stay until april 12th. I decided to take the trip because I am having vocal chord problems again and can´t work. Thought I may as well take advantage of the situation. Would love to see folks, but it will be a little complicated without a voice. Of course, it would be like old times. You remember your wedding of course..

Anyhow, hope you are doing okay, and perhaps, somehow or other we could hook up when we come.

Best,

Rick

Monday, April 6, 2009

Freely

If i can only feel this free
freely to write
freely to think
and freely to imagine
not having to confront any rule
any standard existed before my being
If only i can rescue myself
from all these pains
the flame that keeps on burning
inside of me endless
the fire that never could away
If i could only sing
just one more tune
before I could walk away
into the wilderness
forever live freely like a bird
only to scaventure for my daily meal
healing my being with my daily inner voice
If only i can write freely
no worry of the language,
the spelling, the grammar
If i can only have
this much confidence
i shall live freely
happily.....
this is my inner voice tonight
Good night my blog

I am alive

I am alive
even at this hour of the night
while the world is quietly sleeping
even my noisy black cat and my restless black lab
The only sounds I hear are from
my few fingers hitting these key board
the sleepy laptop humming sound
and perhaps all of the inner voices
running deep inside my ears
making a heat wave into my brain
draining into my soul
The trees over the hill
and the blue sky
flying high beneath my feet
up side down, or down side up
it does not matter
I am alive
I am thinking
I am hearing
my daily inner voice
I have so much to live
"...it's fixable," David Martin
I am alive
Good night my wife, daughters, black cat and dog,
and all the mices, the dimming woodstove
my mother, sisters, brothers and their families
my nieces, nephews and their families
my friends, a few less now; Rick with laryngitis,
Ned, his wife and going away to college daughter
Ours too..
I am alive
How lucky I am to be alive.....Good night
This is my daily inner voice tonight

Friday, April 3, 2009

tire

the four wheels keep on spinning
round and round
Bryan
Tom
Hank
and Hank
Another Tom
another john
don, roo
Chris
Jon
Bill
Dan
Stephanie
Helen
Judy, "No more Chinese food!!!"
Onle some I can recall at this moment
My inner voice tonight

Time flies

Since I wrote this inner voice
many things have changed
many people have moved
many people indeed have gone away
like Mrs. Johnson, the legend tennis player's mother
Jerry Johnson
What a great cheerleader she was for her sons
hockey and, most of all, tennis
the Bjorn Borg
the Jerry Johnson
Time flies since I last walked
on my 40 acres of land
in Sheffield, Vermont
when my first daughter was less than one year old
Now she is looking to apply to Harvard, Cornell, and
the far away universities in the mid-west
Time flies when I am here typing each and every word
with my right hand's middle finger and thumb for the space bar,
and my left hand's ring finger
Still life goes on even I don't want to be part of it!
Time flies...always time flies...what can I do?
Nothing except to live.....while time is flying me by
At least I am part of this time flies
this journey.............
This is my inner voice tonight